"And the tragedy of it is, as you begin to have an emotional collapse, you try to reach out to the one you love, but she pulls away in disgust." -Gabe Lamarche So I’m just a figurant in your little game Robbed of words, bearing silent pain Just a marionette but you won’t pull my strings I’d dance for you given some instructions I thought I was your king but I’m just a pawn The potential to be anything but your love is forgone Feeling so reprobate because the one I deified Speaks words which beckon the notion of suicide Solipsism breeding solipsism as I try to refrain From forgetting all else in the wake of this pain So vulnerable awaking from my defensive torpor My previous attempt not to be hurt anymore But I met you and thought maybe you were different You said you loved me and I really believed it But now through all effort, despite whatever I do I’m “just fucking pathetic,” yeah honey I love you too I thought you’d help me through thick and thin But you took the knife and drove it further in I’m back home for Christmas but can only think of you Awaiting your call on our anniversary that never came true So I lay awake on Christmas Eve wishing I was dead Contemplating how it would hurt to end blood flow to my head Sever my carotid artery; just another place my heart can’t reach Just a final lesson that you served to teach By being so distant each time I cried out your name And being so quick to tell me I was the one to blame Accusations and hypocrisy and my pleas go ignored I guess we had our fun and now you’re bored You phoned me on Christmas, but was it out of affection? My favourite present was just your voice and a bit of attention Reminding me of how close we felt last time we met When you wiped away my tears and said you had nothing to regret We finished our conversation and you said “Bye bye” I mirrored your words and made them my reply The words “I love you” were the last that I said You paused, said “Goodbye,” and the line went dead
I loved that part... I actually loved the whole thing...just...that part just reaches out and bitchslaps you...like 'read this and feel what I'm feeling'...well...imo at least...