Not because… I’m failing to express why I don’t love you anymore, I’m nurturing the ways of guilt by halting the truth like before, It’s just not the way I want to be; it’s just not the way I want to feel, It’s not only that every thing that you did and used to do, just didn’t appeal. It’s not because I’ve found someone else, and I can feel her when smiles, It’s not because I think of her when I’m with you all the while, It’s not because I wanted to be with you and feel if you felt how I am supposed to, It’s not because when we first kissed, the moon wasn’t there to cheer you, It’s not because you felt nothing and I felt the same when we reached out, It’s not because when I lied the words just spilled right out of my mouth. It’s not because the chocolates that I gave you, melted in the summer sun, It’s not because you laughed at me, when I held you high before every one. And as you know, the things you did to me were just too painful, to realize, That even though I’m without you now, I feel your presence away inside, I can’t admit to the truth, that screams that I’m alone and that I had loved you, I faked that hate, and the confusion I made, pushes me to feel the need for you. You are the only one I had ever searched for myself, and the only one I ever got, You were the only I hope I had to my life, your resentment the only peace my life brought. You were the sunshine and the moonlight, though you weren’t always there for me, You were the one who shadowed and lightened my dreams and my memories. You are the only thought I have; you are the only one I ever had, You were the one I hid myself into; you were the one who drives my heart mad. I can never touch you but only wish I could hold tight enough to make me complete, I can never dare to love anyone else; it’s the better and worse parts of you, which make me. i need your comments please...
I found the "It’s not because" too repetative and took away from the poem a bit. It's not your best but it's pretty good and i love the comment under the title This is what i did when i had writersblock, it seemed logical to me. Well when you normally write you have ideas of things you want to write about. When you have writers block you can't think of anything but your damn writers block stopping you from writing. So why not let the writers block be the idea for the writing, but in a discrete way, that's what i did, helped me, but i'm weird