the first poem was for my mom, this is also for her but it also mean the result of her lies for my family its called living a lie Living a lie All these years i thought things were so fine That this happy family would always be mine that nothing could ever go wrong I felt this was a family that would always get along But instead i found that behind your eyes There was a sad little girl With a mind full of lies Keeping us in years of smiles Was tricking us really worth while? Every day you would slowly change into a monstor, not a mother And you drove me insane Lying to Dad, lying to us all beneath you i crumble and fall I go in my room and tears fall from my eyes And the same question plays in my mind...WHY? Why would you choose to go this far Was it fun to tear us apart? Now because of you are family is split Now when you say you love me your words aint worth sh*t im sorry that we could never be close that a path of torcher was what you chose im sorry that we quarrel and bicker every day spent with, every day i grow sicker my head starts to spin, my chest grows tighter but when i think of my dad i become stronger...a fighter Without him i think i would die Cuz atleast with him im not afraid to cry This is my life spent lying to keep you happy tired of lying and i feel so crappy now maybe to the lies will end And soon i wont have to pretend