In this heart I choose this life, To walk away and ignore this shit. Ignore everything you craved for me, Ignore everything you brought onto me. Living another lie of regret and hatred, Giving thanks to you is like giving thanks to Satan. You gave me this and left me with that box, It was like as though you gave me Pandora's box. Realise the hatred, the sickness, and the happiness, Of a memory long to be healing. Heal my wounds, someday I will see the light, Which should've been shining in the start. The time has come for bitter things, For me, in no mercy shall I stop fighting. Making me give up everything, just to say I cared, Hurting me now, is like another wounded soldier. For I am just another wounded soldier, on the faultline, Hoping for the bombing to heal the wounded. I'll sprinkle my love for you with revenge, I always had the upper hand of your sakes. No longer will I be persuaded to care, For everything you gave me was almost murder. So don't fucking yell at me, don't spit in my face, I don't want your saliva touching my skin. Your saliva is the wine that poisoned us all, You were the plague, you gave me. Wish you sometime hell breaks loose on your doorstep, I am just doing the best I can. Restraining myself, holding my esteem together, You never did anything good, as promised.