I was looking through old journal posts of mine. I do this when I'm bored. I found this song. I don't know what I was feeling at the time. Theres no way to tell. (I'm one of those people who can write a happy song when pissed off) So, here goes nothing: i wonder if i were to die. will everything still be the same. will everyone go on with their lives. will tears even be shed. will those who knew me be filled with sorrow. or will they have a grin on their face. if i were to die would it be murder? or would it be a death caused by myself. i wonder if i were to die. would anyone even notice. the person they taunted suddenly missing. would they cry. and if they did. would it be because now theres no one to blame? i wonder if i were to die. what would happen to my room. will it be left alone. or changed as if i didnt exist. what would happen to all ive owned? will it be cherished or thrown away? will i just be a memory? or perhaps more than that? i wonder if i were to die. where would i be buried. would i be far from family. or would i be closer than ever. if they found out all my secrets. would they still love me although im dead? i wonder if i were to die. would it have been fate. or would it have been a mistake. would it have been what i deserve. or what was just meant to be. i wonder now, if i were to die, would you coem to my funeral? would you shed tears? would you even care? doesn't matter if you don't because. if i were to die. i would still love you