Taking Controll

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    heshboy

    heshboy Well-Known Member

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    For all you great writers out there, take a look at this, and judge :)


    Once I didn’t know I could have a say in who I am
    Didn’t know my life was mine to control
    Now I understand who I am, and want to get rid of the trash that planned my years at hand
    Can I get rid of the memories you painted in my brain?
    Can I escape from this growing pain?
    It’s draining all my thoughts, blurred all stuff, and now I forgot how to make them stop
    I’m worked up, because you were holding me back
    Afraid that I wouldn’t come back, but now I’m on the right track
    Your actions are the reasons why I packed and left
    There’s a deeper meaning in all these words I’ve kept
    They were frozen in my dreams to react, to repeat in an never ending elastic lap
    I was trapped but found a way to get back up
    Tucked in my feelings and not wanting you to ever see me
    What came of these dreams in the pain I thought that I would stay the same
    But then it came to me that all of this caused me nothing but pain
    Now I’m drained of all this shit

    You gave me all the fears to make me
    Now I hate me
    And you created all that I see
    But it’s not at all what I want to be
    (I’ll try to recreate myself,
    I’ll try to get back myself)

    I woke up at last in control and having a blast
    Got a grasp of my dreams and all that seemed bleeding but never ending
    This world you controlled you stole
    My whole life was down in the gutter until this day that you began to stutter
    It was all something you molded, you chose it though I didn’t know it
    I once thought that I was below all things
    No dreams of something to be or no emotions in me
    Till one day I saw some wings, an angel came from above a gave me sight of what my life should be like
    That’s when I took flight that one night
    Now I know what it’s like to be in a fight
    To not back down when in a fright
    Not a puppet anymore, not there to be what you adore
    No more un rewarding chores
    Once glued to you
    I’m me, you’re you, and my old self shall be going to heaven soon

    You gave me all the fears to make me
    Now I hate me
    And you created all that I see
    But it’s not at all what I want to be
    (I’ll try to recreate myself,
    I’ll try to get back myself)

    I’ll try to recreate myself,
    I’ll try to get back myself


    Maybe I’m confused of being stuck in the mold of your shoes
    Not a clue of who I really was, destroyed by knowing I was you
    Got lifted in the air and spread some wings
    Trying flee all this pain that hatred brings
    That’s when I found out what life means
    Bringing this to a conclusion, I was sick of the confusion
    All the twisted thoughts brought upon me
    Today were not together
    I’m done being bored
    I was young and felt alone
    Now I’m old and I’m not going to fold anymore
    This is my life, and my fight
    I not going to be backing down tonight


    You gave me all the fears to make me
    Now I hate me
    And you created all that I see
    But it’s not at all what I want to be
    (I’ll try to recreate myself,
    I’ll try to get back myself)


    All this friction has caused nothing but sparks, from your harsh remarks
    I was in the dark, but I’m not going to have this shit anymore
    Now I’m parked where my life will be in the light, where it should have been before
    This is my life, and my fight
    I not going to be backing down tonight

    I’ll try to recreate myself,
    I’ll try to get back myself
     
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    The Outsider

    The Outsider Billy Corgan = God

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    u spelt control wrong.

    other than that this is really good of u HB. i really think this was your best piece so far !!

    :hugz:
     
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    heshboy

    heshboy Well-Known Member

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    thanks Outsider, but I guess no one else likes it.
     

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