I’m feeling kind of out of date Like I’m out of place and should of grown up out of this early state Maybe I’m a little late to begin, and feeling that it’s do to all the mistakes I’ve made When I was a young kid trying to get free of the chains I was in I was binded in the misery I created in shame I put all the blame on you so I could shake the pain Didn’t want it stressed upon me like ton of weight Shackled in the dispair that lies create Watching it all unfold It goes to show that you didn’t know how much my life blowed All the codes we put in to grow like a super mushrooms mold Now I’m feeling much older than I thought Caught up in the memories I forgot/but Lost in the trap created when I fought/All The memories that I thought I forgot Growing into something I was thought to be Do I have to become who you want me to be? I’m going to be who I ought to be To see that it’s my life all on me Now I’m awake in all this pain Draped in the curse knowing I was drained Came and gone was all the pain I found a way to get my life together in the right way/ to mean the same It all came to me when I would shout out loud My brain didn’t freeze in a drought when I frowned I found that it’s better to show what I’m all about To the entire world that doesn’t know what I got Locked inside the memories in a box Wrapped in my head/ Now I’m feeling much older than I thought Caught up in the memories I forgot/but Lost in the trap created when I fought/All The memories that I thought I forgot Growing into something I was thought to be Do I have to become who you want me to be? I’m going to be who I ought to be To see that it’s my life all on me Knowing what would work in this world I have no more confusion to lure me around Spinning to only be pinned to the ground Like nails stuck into my body to hurt me when I’m down Pounding loudly in my heart I was taught To figure that I ought to give life all that I got Dot away the pain with ink to ease the leak within Darkening the bark of my skin to please my weakend chin And Drink the calm water of my heart Now I’m feeling much older than I thought Caught up in the memories I forgot/but Lost in the trap created when I fought/All The memories that I thought I forgot Growing into something I was thought to be Do I have to become who you want me to be? I’m going to be who I ought to be To see that it’s my life all on me I’m going to be who I ought to be To see that it’s my life all on me I’m going to be who I ought to be To see that it’s my life all on me I’m going to be who I ought to be To see that it’s my life all on me